Battle Wounds

That is my arm. Yes, from blood being taken. So here is the backstory. I wound up in the ER with a swollen foot. No idea how it got swollen, it just was. So I was tested for everything under the sun, especially for congestive heart failure. Once my BNP levels came back fine I was released. During my short stay at the ER I receieved a shot that made my water circulate and made me pee 7 times in 1 hour, and lose 6lbs. Finally the ER Dr tells me he believes the retention is from the clomid or trigger shot. WONDERFUL!...I called the RE she said absolutely not...but really wtf does this brainfart know? She is afterall the genius who tried to impregnate my cysts...On a lighter note...I have ovulated, I am 98% sure. My temps have risen and my breasts hurt. So hooray for that. Will post more later.

Some Doctors Should Just Resign...

And My Reproductive Endocrinologist is one of them. I can't even begin to censor my thought processes but I have to, because well even though this is "my" blog, I know some of my readers are a bit conservative.

So last Tuesday Cristian and I decided to move ahead and do the IUI despite the fact that our beloved friend passed away. On Monday we spent the entire day and night in the funeral parlor, Tuesday morning we did the IUI and Tuesday night back to the funeral parlor and Wednesday was the burial. The only thing that got me through this was the thought that perhaps our buddy was guiding us from heaven. I felt guilty doing the IUI that day and even cried about it. But we did it, because the RE said it was time and she had triggered me Monday early morning. Because she did a scan that showed 2 mature follicles...

Well...I went for a progesterone test yesterday and my level was 0.8 which means I did not ovulate..hmmm? You mean I did not ovulate but we triggered, I had follicles, we did IUI, what do you mean I did not ovulate.
So I go in this morning for repeat blood work and another ultrasound and guess what... I HAVE NO MATURE FOLLICLES.
The Dr then proceeds to tell me that maybe they weren't follicles the other day and were actually cysts..wow this woman has got to be kidding me. So I said well is there a corpus luteum and she says.."maybe" and points to a black dot saying it could be an 11mm follicle or a corpus luteum.

Anyway..I tell her that my cervix was high, soft and open, she tells me "Oh I don't know much about cervical positions..."

OMG...what the fuck am I doing dealing with this doctor. Apparently I know more than she does and that is sad being she has 17 years of experience.

I am really angry, REALLLLLLLLLLLLY angry, because she thinks because she is leaving the practice and not accepting my insurance in 15 days that she can dismiss me. She even picked up a personal phone call while with me and DISMISSED me!

I am so done with her!

I can't wait until my appointment with Dr. Liccardi at NYU Fertility Center

A Sad Day In Our Home

Yesterday was 4th of July, and while we celebrated Cristian's sister's wedding, we came home to find out that one of Cristian's best friends was in an accident up in Lake George and he drowned. My heart is breaking for his family. I can't imagine why God thought it was time to take him, he had so much more to do in life, get married, have children. This is so so so so sad. My friend is his girlfriend, and today is their anniversary, I think 7-8 years. My heart is so heavy for her. Last night Cristian cried so hard and so much, I never seen my husband like that. I didn't know what to do, I just held him and kept saying "I am so sorry hunny." I really don't know what to say, to think, all I know is that this really sucks, and it hurts, and I wish I could go to sleep and wake up and it all have been a dream.

My Lovely Follies

Ok well, obviously I am not really going to talk about that book but I thought the title was appropriate LOL. I went to the RE today and low and behold I have several follicles (Follies). There were 2 dominant ones, one on each ovary. One measured 15mm, the other 12mm and it is only CD10. The RE suspects that BOTH will release eggs and I have a chance at twins! WOOHOO. Being that I finished Clomid yesterday the RE is very happy with the way in which my body is responding to Clomid. I am very very happy that 50mg seems to be doing the trick so far. I am going to be testing all weekend long with my OPK's and my CBEFM and checking for surges and peaks. If none by Monday I go in for follow up u/s, trigger shot and scheduled IUI..I am ELATED..I cannot believe that it is very possible that in 2.5 weeks I could find out I will be a Mommy. I am going to be praying every night. Please keep me and DH in your prayers, we really want a baby.

Flying HIGH!

Well, I finally started Clomid on Saturday. On the Thursday before that I quit smoking cold turkey! I have not smoked in 5 days!! Now let me tell you, I was a heavy smoker (25-30 ciggs a day!)..
So I have been taking clomid for 4 days. This morning I did my fertility monitor test strip and put it in the machine and expected to see LOW, because I've never seen anything other than LOW, I always ovulate too late to get a high or peak..well....
TODAY IS CD 8 AND I GOT A HIGH READING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Clomid is working!!!!!