Things Have Turned Around....

Well it has been a little while since I've written an entry and a few things have changed quite a bit. Lots of things to be happy about, and still lots of wondering if and when I will have a child still consumes me daily. I guess when you suffer through infertility the wondering never goes away..the hopelessness teeter totters back and forth.

Some parts of me have been jaded from this experience, some parts of me have improved, all in all this experience is shaping me and I just don't really know how I feel about this shaping. On one hand I hate my infertility, it is a curse that has blackened the innocence of conceiving for my husband and I, and then on the otherhand I view itas a blessing. When I become a mother, I know I will look at my children through different eyes than most mothers I will know...for this I am grateful. I am grateful for the sensitive heart that I have, for the easiness of tears, for compassion for others with infertility. These things I am grateful for...for now at least.

Anyway back to the purpose of this update. Well it is confirmed. I have naturally decreased and normalized all hormone levels that indicated PCOS.

My Endocrinologist was the one who diagnosed me without even seeing my ovaries and said that there doesn't need to be cysts, and so he based it on bloodwork levels. Cholesterol, Testosterone etc.
Well since being diagnosed with Hashimotos and being on synthroid, my levels are all normal. {{Hop, Skip, Jump}}
My testosterone isn't even elevated, not even high normal..it is dead smack in the middle of normal!! {{cheese smile}}

The synthroid did the job, in fact it helped a little too much, and the Doctor brought down my synthroid dosage to 88mcg. I originally started out on 75mcg, then did 100mcg and now I am on 88mcg. My TSH level was .34, normal is between .4-4 (between 1-2) for pregnancy. So just need to up it a bit.

DH and I went back to the RE for a few tests. He had his repeate semen analysis, and we both had Karyotype testing done, and I was tested for thrombosis workup..such as lupus anticoagulants, asa, ana, MTHFR gene mutation.

We have to wait until next Thursday for the results of the s/a and hopefully the blood tests as well. They took like 12 viles of blood from me...I almost shit my pants when I seen all the tubes.


We will be returning to Clomid/IUI and Progesterone at the end of the month. I didn't lose all the weight I wanted to, but 15lbs was hard enough to lose with my thyroid and so we have decided to just go for it, and I will worry about losing after the baby is born.

And.....

On a happier note Craig is officially cancer free as of 2-26-09
Just last year they told him he would die by August of 2008...I found out last night that he is doing wonderful and my heart couldn't have smiled any wider.