God, If You're Listening....

I need you to please hear my prayer. I need you to really listen and to work your miracle. You see, I have a very special woman in my life who is currently 20 weeks pregnant. This woman came to be in moments of great despair in my life. When I had given up all hopes of ever becoming a mother, you sent her to me. I know you did. You created a friendship, through the common bond of infertility, you created a friendship through the common bond of Hashimoto's. Well God, today I got some really horrible news from her about her ultrasound. It appears her baby girl has an encephalocele in the back of her head and worst case scenario is she dies before birth. Lord, I really don't want to doubt your capabilities, and I really don't want to be angry with you but I just can't for the life of me understand why all of these horrible things are happening to such good women. There are so many women who abuse their children, who leave their babies in garbage pails or at the entries of hospitals and fire stations. So many 15 year old pregnant girls without any means of taking care of their children. Yet you save these children, and you take away the wanted children from Mother's who are good and kind, mother's who have tried so hard to become pregnant. Why do you do this Lord? Why must my friends suffer? Why did you take my baby away too? Isn't infertility enough of a struggle? Haven't we paid with our tears? Why isn't it enough for you? When will this all make sense?

I am pleading with you, as I tears pour down my face that you please, please, please save her baby.